Curiosity

As I've wondered about how all of this reintegration and reparation of fidelity works, I've wondered if my view is too selfish and limited to see the realistic complexity of life. Where I am in love with Heather, does Sam have at least potential interest with a woman who, like Sam is to me, is Heather's 7th angel. I am not sure about Sam's present orientation in relationships, and I don't know how much he cares to make it my business, but I do strongly believe that many of us do have identity that is gender-flexible.

With fifteen hundred years as the time period described to me by my actual angels within which our resolution of the imbalances of sub-angelic reincarnation will occur, I know we have plenty of learning to do. If there are more truly four than three of us, I'm sure in one of these lifetimes I will learn to recognize, but in this lifetime, my Christian style and level of research has only brought me theurgically to the recognition of the three of us. I've had visions of Sam being a counselor in our next life, my truest friend who will help me through some marital and other crises in that lifetime. I've had the vision that Heather will be the first woman I love in the next life, and that we will marry each other in the lifetime after that.

What we do in this life depends on what we feel safe with. In both cases, I feel a growing trust and reckoning with truth and responsibility. In my identity relationship with Sam, I simply see progress. In my heterosexual love with Heather, I see the possibility of fluctuation, such that we could marry in this life, not in the next, but again in the next after that, and so on, each of us being in other relationships also along the way. Even during those lifetimes when we are not maritally commital, I see us connecting and growing together.

I hope this is not too awkward for me to blog about both relationships in such a mixed way, but the story of triad really got to me. From my simple perspective, the both of you mean so much to me. I don't know who that woman might be in Heather's life who is significant to her in a way that Sam is to me, whom in one of these lifetimes would catch Sam's heart the way Heather has caught mine. I hope I'm not offending either of you to imagine our lives so intertwined, and I hope I'm not making unwelcome assumptions about sexual orientation.